Writer's Block!!!

It has been ages since I last posted to this blog. I have been busy, but not as busy as to not be able to write even a simple piece. So what was the hold up then?

Its what a lot of people call a “Writer’s Block“.

In my case, these blocks don’t really stop my mind from creating, they just stop me from putting my thoughts into writing. Rather inconvenient, you know.

I have been toying with a few ideas, but they were really good ideas. Things that could be put into a novel. I wouldn’t waste such gold on a free blog site, would I? And I mean no offence to whatever little readership this blog commands.

The fact still remains that I wanna be published. I want to see my name on the cover page of a novel. And I have wanted this ever since the age of 14. I wished to be a teen sensation with a couple of bestsellers to my name before I hit college, but that didn’t happen.

And it wasn’t because I couldn’t write. I could and I did. But there was always something that stopped me from completing the stories. Self doubt, probably. Coz halfway through a story, I’d re-read it and think to myself, “Damn! This is stupid. Who would read this?”

Among my unfinished works is a fantasy novel, a psychological thriller, a sci-fi superhero novella and an epic romance novel. Sometime I feel like I am scared of finishing these stories. I feel like I’d have nothing to look forward to once I do. Pretty stupid chain of thought for an aspiring writer, isn’t it?

Like I mentioned, my dream of being a published author dates back to my teens. But things just keep getting on the way. I have led a pretty complicated life, in terms of relationships. I was a major attention-seeker while growing up. And not in a good way. I was uncannily needy and it always created problems. One crisis after the other, thats how I led my life, until quite recently.

And remember I told you about my uncle suggesting that I should write only about things I knew. Well, that led to me writing a lot about my first girlfriend. Coz that was a six-year long relationship that started in seventh grade and was quite dramatic all along. The down side of this was the fact that it was a failed relationship, one that was a cause for some major emotional problems.

The break up wasn’t amicable, even though through the years we grew up to become friends. Both of us were responsible for it through the several bad decisions and stupid choices we made. We hurt each other big time. And this was another problem which stopped me from completing a story about her.

I didn’t wanna portray her as the villain but I always ended up doing just that. She is a difficult human being like all of us are and I don’t wanna sound judgemental about her when I write. I am still not sure whether that story should read out as a tragedy or a romance. But shouldn’t a writer be able to put these doubts behind him?

Anyways, I digress from the point. So, I have concluded that my writer’s block is mainly caused by the doubts I have about the things I write. I keep thinking nobody would read it. So, I would be glad if I could have my friends read stuff I write and offer me feedback. If all goes well, I will start posting chapters from my novels here for you to read.

I have decided to make this article the first one where I will expect my readers to offer personal feedback to me. The feedback could be about this article, or it could be suggestions about things you want me to write about. You can send me your feedback on my email id “ian260190@gmail.com” or as a message on my Facebook page.