A Bowl of Elusive

Waqt pe saath nibha na paye, aaj wafa ki ummeed karte hain... Mere humraah bhi ajeeb hain, bewafai mein rehnuma ki ummeed karte hain. Bhula diya hai humne bhi saari un alfaz-e-mohabbat, un bekaar ki baaton ko... Kahaan aap banjar sunsaan galiyon mein aake mehfil-e-aab ki ummeed karte hain. Khairiyat se rahein aap, ye dua bhi maang lenge kudrat se... Ab ajnabee hain hum, begaane naqshon pe akele safar karte hain. Aapke aage jahan aur bhi thi, ye ilm to tha tab bhi humein lekin... Aakhirash jab bicchde to ehsaas kiya ki hum khudse bhi kaafi mohabbat karte hain. Humse bayaan-e-haal  kis ummeed se karne chale ho, ai ajnabee musafir... Aapke awaaraa kadam kab se humare khushiyon ka khayaal karte hain?

While I sat there working on that 87 mb excel sheet, I couldn't for the life of me, figure out how to represent the data I had to. I had put in some tags and now I didn't remember why I'd put them. Even a simple copy paste function was taking several minutes. This problem was just not getting resolved. So I just closed the file, without saving it. I took a leak, drank some water and came back. Then I started fresh on the file. I put in new tags, named them so that I won't forget their purpose, jotted down my thought process and I was done with the file an hour later. This got me thinking about starting fresh. So many times in our lives we keep on persevering on things that aren't going well. We keep trying to find solutions while repeating the same mistakes. It's like if I kept on creating more pivot tables in the 87 mb file, bumping it by another 20-30 mb so that it would hang more and waste more of my time, instead of closing it and starting fresh. ...